Sad Moments

Everyday I have to be sad idk why. Like maybe its the music I listen too, like Lana Del Rey. It makes me wanna kill myself. But then I think to myself that I have friends that love me a lot. And I still have a future ahead of me that is waiting for me. I just listen to those songs because her voice is unique and special for me. Like it fits her for that type of music. Anyways I get sad when I hear sad songs or when a friend is sad. Like I really care about them a lot. Sometimes I ignore them because I don't wanna hurt myself. I've been through a lot in my life and I'm getting stronger but weaker at the same time. Like I need someone to help me get up. Its like a guy without a leg. Without it he cant walk. I really depend on my friends. Their my life. Even tho my mom and sister tell me that they aren't gonna always be there for you, I just ignore them because you never know. Things could happen in this world. Good or bad, but I'm always thinking positive. If you always think negative bad things could happen. Dreams can come true. Sometimes I cry because I have flashbacks of bad times I've passed through my life. But most of the times is because my own friends hurt me. They brake me into pieces. But thankfully I have friends that really do care about me. Making ms happy and making me forget about what happened.