Friends Forever

You'll always have friends that will be by your side no matter what happens. Well right now I have tons of them, and I feel safe I guess. It means that they really do care about me, they take their time talkting to me when I most need them. Especially Maxx my new friend more like Twin. The good thing is that he lives near me!! Outstanding! XD. I just want to say thanks for those who have been there for me. I really appreciate that.

Life without that person.

Ever since I started talking to that person I feel different. Like if I miss an hour without that person I'll go crazy. That person changed my life. I've haven't been this sad since the day we started talking to eachother. And since that second we started talking I felt like a bond between us. Idk why I feel this way maybe I really love that person. I barely talk to that person. If I could change that I would.

Sad Moments

Everyday I have to be sad idk why. Like maybe its the music I listen too, like Lana Del Rey. It makes me wanna kill myself. But then I think to myself that I have friends that love me a lot. And I still have a future ahead of me that is waiting for me. I just listen to those songs because her voice is unique and special for me. Like it fits her for that type of music. Anyways I get sad when I hear sad songs or when a friend is sad. Like I really care about them a lot. Sometimes I ignore them because I don't wanna hurt myself. I've been through a lot in my life and I'm getting stronger but weaker at the same time. Like I need someone to help me get up. Its like a guy without a leg. Without it he cant walk. I really depend on my friends. Their my life. Even tho my mom and sister tell me that they aren't gonna always be there for you, I just ignore them because you never know. Things could happen in this world. Good or bad, but I'm always thinking positive. If you always think negative bad things could happen. Dreams can come true. Sometimes I cry because I have flashbacks of bad times I've passed through my life. But most of the times is because my own friends hurt me. They brake me into pieces. But thankfully I have friends that really do care about me. Making ms happy and making me forget about what happened.

Goodnight.

I was waiting for my best friend to get on because she told me she was, but i guess she fell asleep again lol. Hopefully she's on tomorrow,  I already miss her. Goodnight I'm really sleepy I was just gonna stay up to talk to her but I guess not.

Move on

Sometimes we go through hard times in our lifes, and we ignore them. Well that's happening to me, but I can't ignore it this time. She knows who I'm talking about. She's probably seeing this right now. I've never felt this way over a girl. She says that "why do I like her if I don't know her" but for me its like if I knew her since the day we were born. Idk what to do. Maybe try to ignore it by watching my favorite show, making plans for revenge. This is one of my hard times that I'm having. Even tho nvm. Idk what else to type. The rest if personal. So Bye. I'll be writing more sometime later.

Worst Week Ever

So this week has been my worst, like no joke. I've been in pain since Monday. I try to help myself up but I can't do it alone. My BFF is nice, but she also gets annoying with that one thing. Ugh. Right now I'm really sad you have now idea how sad I am. She wanted me to stay up all night with her. The only reason why I stayed up late, was to talk to her. But then I got mad and sad because she said she wasn't gonna talk about that subject anymore. Then she talks about it for a long time. I just left. I was gonna erase everything I have. All my accounts that I have. I still don't know if I should do that. I'm just really depressed right now. Hopefully my friends can cheer me up in school. Because I can't take it any longer. I've been through a lot my whole life. I just can't do it by myself. Have a good week, since I didn't have one.