Ups and Downs

People face different obstacles through their lifetime, some might be good ones while some might be bad ones. We've all been through that. But when we're going through a good phase we don't want it to end, nobody does. Why? Because at the end of all the happy things comes the bad ones. It may not be all fun and games but most of the times its good to have your bad days. We need to vent sometime and why not vent when you're in a sad mood? I've done that so many times, and its amazing. I've had my ups and downs with many of my friends. Some might come and go but the ones who truly are your friends stay there through thick and thin. Sometimes the ones you truly love aren't your real friends. And trust me that's the hardest thing to let go of and move on. It took me exactly one year and a half to get over one of my crushes. And now i don't even think about it. We meet new people everyday which is a good thing when it comes to meeting new people. But never trust them until you've earned their trust. Maybe earning their trust may take more than a few weeks but its worth it. At the end of the day, they'll be there for you. I'm currently going through a bumpy path. I've met someone recently, and i'm crazy in love. But the thing I'm not that happy about is that, he/she isn't how i expected them to be. But they say, if you really love someone you won't care how they are. Because love is love. And some love never ends.

High School "Satisfaction"

High School is hell for us teenagers, well some teenagers.......I'm a teenager and high school just makes me nuts, so much homework that we have to stay up late at night to finish it. Stress is highly common for us teenagers because at this point in our lives, we're going through a hard time accepting who we are, and realizing how the real world is, while the teachers gives us homework like crazy every single day, and sometimes projects and powerpoints that is a major grade. When you combine stress with homework it aint a good thing. We become aggressive, emotional, sometimes even suicidal for us. But yet we still live through everyday of high school for a "better" future supposedly. Many adults say that the hard you work the better future you'll have, but sometimes it aint likely to happen for some of us.

Emptiness

Do you ever miss someone so much you feel empty without them? Well, that's how I'm feeling since these past months. You may have have heard of her "Olivia Holt", well we used to talk 24/7 and now we don't. Her work has her really busy, and i understand that but she could at least try to communicate with me sometime. It's been a month since she last got on Facebook to talk to me. I feel so sad and empty without her. She knows me so well, she knows how i feel when i miss talking to her. I love her so much, she's been my best friend since the beginning and we still are in my heart. I have high hopes for us, she told me we would meet one day and make it the best day of our lives, and I'm still waiting for that amazing, heart-stopping day to come. If you're reading this Olivia, i just wanted to say that i miss you so much, and i love you.

Mistake

Yeah I make mistakes, but not as big as this one. Telling her changed our friendship, changed my life for good. Now she won't talk to me or message me. Next time I know to keep my mouth shut and keep it to myself. Or maybe she wasn't the true friend for me. Maybe she just felt bad for me or something idk. But now I know not to trust her because every secret i told her, would soon be heard.
#OliviaHolt

Friends Forever

You'll always have friends that will be by your side no matter what happens. Well right now I have tons of them, and I feel safe I guess. It means that they really do care about me, they take their time talkting to me when I most need them. Especially Maxx my new friend more like Twin. The good thing is that he lives near me!! Outstanding! XD. I just want to say thanks for those who have been there for me. I really appreciate that.

Life without that person.

Ever since I started talking to that person I feel different. Like if I miss an hour without that person I'll go crazy. That person changed my life. I've haven't been this sad since the day we started talking to eachother. And since that second we started talking I felt like a bond between us. Idk why I feel this way maybe I really love that person. I barely talk to that person. If I could change that I would.

Sad Moments

Everyday I have to be sad idk why. Like maybe its the music I listen too, like Lana Del Rey. It makes me wanna kill myself. But then I think to myself that I have friends that love me a lot. And I still have a future ahead of me that is waiting for me. I just listen to those songs because her voice is unique and special for me. Like it fits her for that type of music. Anyways I get sad when I hear sad songs or when a friend is sad. Like I really care about them a lot. Sometimes I ignore them because I don't wanna hurt myself. I've been through a lot in my life and I'm getting stronger but weaker at the same time. Like I need someone to help me get up. Its like a guy without a leg. Without it he cant walk. I really depend on my friends. Their my life. Even tho my mom and sister tell me that they aren't gonna always be there for you, I just ignore them because you never know. Things could happen in this world. Good or bad, but I'm always thinking positive. If you always think negative bad things could happen. Dreams can come true. Sometimes I cry because I have flashbacks of bad times I've passed through my life. But most of the times is because my own friends hurt me. They brake me into pieces. But thankfully I have friends that really do care about me. Making ms happy and making me forget about what happened.